It’s been a few years since we’ve been to the zoo, what with being really pregnant for a while, and then having a baby. We haven’t really been able to do much while she was so little. Today we went to the zoo with some friends and had a great time. Eden met Parker and Autumn for the first time ever. It’s great having friends with children to share these moments with. I’m not really sure how interested Eden was in the animals, but she absolutely loved all the babies around. Here are some iPhone photos from today. I shot about two packs of PX70 Color Shade from Impossible, but don’t have time to scan them at the moment, so I’ll get to that later. Peace!
Lots of exciting things have happened so far in March. Eden is almost 8 months, and she’s very interested in other children. We’ve been having some awesome weather and took our little bug to Cumberland Park last weekend. She loved it! She got to scream at other kids and crawl around on some warm astroturf. We brought snacks, and Paul climbed around on the rock wall. If you live in Nashville, I highly recommend this park. It’s right behind the stadium near that really awkward giant red sculpture on the Cumberland River.
Paul surprised me with a new Canon EOS T4i last week! It’s so much fun. I’m about to start learning how to edit videos. So far I’m really impressed with the video we’ve shot with it. Here are some of the first photos we’ve taken:
We are planning a trip to Joshua Tree National Forest next month and I am MEGA EXCITED. I’m really hoping to catch some good shots of the milky way and try my hand at time lapse in the desert.
I cannot begin to explain how I felt watching this new film develop. Beautiful clouds of blues and greens fade into sharp, crisp colors – and I didn’t even have to turn the picture over while it did. THIS is what every instant film lover has been waiting for, and Impossible did it. Thanks guys!
Here are some shots developing that I took at my husband’s place of work. He works at a puppet shop called Animax and there are lots of colorful things to shoot.. These, I haven’t scanned yet.
This is what I’m working with. It’s an SX70 Sonar and I love it so, so much.
While developing and after development.
Here are some actual scanned photos. They are mostly my daughter’s things from her nursery, as that contains some of the most colorful things in our house at the moment.
This is Eden’s giraffe. I illuminated it with a flashlight.
Here is a painting hanging in her room that her father painted. It looks amazing against the teal paint of the walls. This was shot in natural light.
I’ve got so many more pictures to share and so little time. It’s really hard to blog with a new baby around, especially when she wants all of my attention. Luckily, she napped long enough for me to get this done. Yesterday we had her photos taken in a pumpkin. I shot some polaroids of her, and I’ll try super hard to scan them in before Halloween. (yeah right)
Oh, and, did I mention how insanely excited I am for Christmas? I can’t wait to put up our tree.
I’m so thankful that I got to test this film out for Impossible. It truly is magical to be able to watch my pictures develop again.
You can purchase this magnificent film by clicking HERE.
It’s not everything I ever dreamed of. In fact, I never dreamed about having a child as an adolescent or as a young adult. It’s not something that I wanted to put my body through. It never appealed to me. I think somewhere inside most women is a clock, and when the alarm goes off – BOOM – they all of a sudden want to have a baby. at least that’s how it works according to me.
39 weeks I carried this human being around inside of me. Feeding it cake and ice cream, until it reached an estimated 9+ lbs. I won! Except not really. An induction was scheduled at week 39 because I was told that if we waited until 40 or more weeks, I would definitely probably maybe have a cesarean. There’s still a small part of me that thinks if I’d waited to birth my daughter naturally, that it would have happened how I’d wanted it. It didn’t. It was all kind of a nightmare to me. It was traumatic. But it was worth it, and now I have this amazing, blue-eyed, chubby cheeked beauty..and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
On July 26th we arrived at the hospital around 6 something in the evening. I was placed in a room. I had no idea of how long of a process birth was. When being induced, it can apparently take a very, very long time. I was only dilated to 1cm and had been for a few weeks. I suited up and set up camp in a bed that was highly uncomfortable. They started an IV drip and I wasn’t allowed to eat or drink anything. The nurse was such a bitch that I had to have Paul sneak me water from the bathroom because I was so thirsty. She also inserted progesterone tablets inside of me. She had to do two before I was having any major contractions. I wasn’t even put on pitocin until almost the next morning. I’m actually starting to forget what happened now.
I remember the epidural. I remember being very scared of the epidural. I remember my doctor coming in in the morning after I’d gotten absolutely no sleep and breaking my water. I could feel the warmth of it but not much since I was numb.
I’d spent all night in labor and would spend most of the next day in labor. somewhere between 18 and 20 hours contracting, not sleeping, not eating.. I was stressed out. I’d made it to 2 cm, 3, then 4.. all the way to 6! It was all happening! and then… it wasn’t.. something was wrong. She was stuck. Or, she was sleeping.
Our daughter had been pretty inactive the next morning while I was contracting. They even put a sugar drip on to try to wake her up. The fact of the matter was, I didn’t think that she was ready to come out, but the doctor wanted me to believe that she was too big to fit through my pelvis. She may have been right. I’ll never know. My cervix was so swollen that it began to close. This was the moment that I realized I wasn’t going to have my daughter naturally. The doctor discussed what was going to happen, and I agreed. Before I was induced, she described me as being ‘high risk’ for cesarean and I knew that it was a possibility. Unfortunately I hadn’t read up much about it, therefore, I was completely unprepared for the experience.
She left the room to make preparations and it was just Paul and I. I don’t remember at what point I broke down, but I remember clearly that I was in an oxygen mask and I was breathing cold crisp air while I was sobbing. I remember the air coming out of the sides of the mask and blowing against the tears on my cheeks and making them cold. Paul held me, and I told him that I was scared. I didn’t want this at all. I tried to stay calm, but it was hard to.
I was wheeled in to the operating room. Paul had to sit outside while I was prepared. He was wearing a mask and a hairnet.. some weird suit, and bags over his shoes. I was scared. I had never been this frightened before. A nurse pumped the most drugs I’ve ever seen into my epidural so that I would completely lose feeling. I was poked with a sharp object and asked if I was numb to it. The amount of painkillers made me so nauseous so they had to inject me with drugs to counteract that, I believe 3 times I had to have it because I was so sick. I kept asking where Paul was. They had cut me open before they even brought him in. He told me that when he entered the room he could see me cut open and there was a large container of blood that they were sucking out of me. He squeezed my hand, and I started shaking. I was still scared, and sick, and I could feel tugging happening down there, but felt no pain.
She assured me that they were almost finished and I would feel a final tug as they were pulling the rest of her out. I was very aware of what was happening. I was excited. I remember her very first cry and at that very moment I let go of every negative emotion that I had and felt nothing but love. I cried so much and felt so much joy when I heard her. Paul was able to hold her right after she was pulled from me and he held her close to my face. I was still pretty much just sobbing and convulsing the whole time. I shook for hours after I had her. The nurse said it was the effects of the painkillers. I watched them weigh her, and wipe her down. I was pretty much in shock. After I was able to hold her, they were still finishing stitching me up. I remember the smell of my flesh burning as they cauterized me. I hope I never have to smell that again as long as I live. They had to move me back onto a bed and then they whisked me through the halls to my room. Nothing felt real. When we arrived I waited patiently for them to bring her to me. Within 20 minutes of delivering, I nursed her for the first time. I remember it clearly. I stroked her head, and her face. Everything was magical.
Eden will be 7 weeks old tomorrow. She’s grown so much since this day. The noises that she makes and the smiles that she gives me melt my heart. I love her.
Eden was born on July 27th @ 5:10 PM. She was 8lbs 11oz and 20 and 1/4 inches
Eden is almost 1 month. I’ve been really busy not sleeping. I’d like to share her birth story, but I don’t have enough energy right now, so hopefully these pictures will do. Babies are super hard work, and they’re pretty boring at first, but she’s starting to notice her surroundings and make weird noises. She also screams a lot, but that’s because everything pisses her off right now. I really miss sleeping..
I’m so fascinated by her. I can’t believe something so perfect came from Paul and I’s DNA. I also can’t believe that such a large baby was inside of me for that long. I labored for 20 hours before my doctor said that she wasn’t coming out that way. That story is for another day.
My husband has been so wonderful throughout the whole ordeal. He made me feel safe and comfortable in the hospital, and took care of me after the cesarean. He’s such an amazing father, and I look forward to raising our daughter together. I know he’s going to make her laugh as much as he makes me laugh, and that’s golden.
By the way – she’s WEIRD.
Our daughter is 32 weeks today and we decided to have another 4D ultrasound done. The video is 22 minutes long, but I love every minute of it. She’s grown so much since the last time we had this done! around the 10 minute mark she yawns really big for the first time and you can see her chubby little double chin. She’s got so much fat on her! I wonder how much she weighs..? Only 8 more weeks to go. It’s been an incredible journey, but my body is swollen and it’s so hard to move around and get out of bed now. I’m ready to lose all of this extra weight. Our baby shower is next weekend. We just returned from our honey/babymoon in Florida. We ended up going to Boca Grande, Sanibel, and Venice beach – where we found a lot of awesome beach treasures and shark teeth. I’ll do a vacation post soon.
On May 19th, Paul & I finally said our ‘I do’s’ in Franklin, TN on his parent’s farm. I mean, we didn’t get married out in the pasture or anything, but our wonderful friends drove a while to get there. His mother and her friend had been planning it since we announced our engagement on Valentine’s day. Paul asked me to marry him in Europe! The wedding was one of the most beautiful things I’d ever witnessed. When I saw my bouquet, I cried like a little bitch and his mother hugged me and told me that she loved me, which made me cry even more. His brother, John even performed the ceremony rites, which was awesome! When it came time for me to say my part, I started crying again. Getting married was kind of a big deal for the both of us. We were both recently divorced when we met. He randomly messaged me on the internet and asked if I would like to come over and eat dinner. He cooked an amazing dinner for me and we sat on opposite ends of the couch staring awkwardly at each other while listening to Chris Garneau. I was instantly attracted to him from the day that we met, and he has turned out to be the funniest guy I’ve ever been with. Paul is amazing! He works so hard to give me everything that I want, he takes me anywhere I want to go, and he tells me that he loves me every day. Not to mention he’s friggin’ handsome as hell.
Anyway, the ceremony happened at 2pm. My grandfather walked me down the aisle. Unfortunately my parents could not attend, but my mother is coming in August to be with us when Eden is born. Here are a few photos that our friend Joe Melanson shot of the wedding. We had a photographer, but haven’t gotten the photos back yet. I made the fascinator and veil that I’m wearing in the photos, too.
These next photos were shot with special edition NIGO film from The Impossible Project, which they sent to us as a wedding gift. Thanks so much, Impossible. You have my heart! Unfortunately, most of the photos were shot by family members who were confused when I started to yell that they needed to shield the images from the sun after they came out of the camera, so a lot of them are washed out, but I still love them anyway.
I felt beautiful, but the dress was hot. It was a Galina sweetheart taffeta dress from David’s Bridal.. it was one of the only ones I could find that had an empire waist that wouldn’t crush Eden. She’s so big inside of me now. I think I really wanted it because it had pockets and I could carry my phone in one pocket and put the polaroids in the other. Here’s a photo of the wedding band that Paul placed halfway on my finger. I have to wear them on a necklace because pregnancy has caused my fingers to swell pretty badly. I can’t wait to actually get to wear them both, because they are BEAUTIFUL!
These last photos were shot with my Spectra System on Image Softtone film, which is and will always be my favorite. I’m sad that Impossible is almost out of it.
The woman in pink on the left is Paul’s mother, Mary. She is absolutely gorgeous and I couldn’t thank her enough for putting this all together. I’m so glad to be a part of their family now, and I always have so much fun when I’m out with her. I can pretty much tell her anything, and it’s okay.
Charlsie & Patrick, who are also expecting their first baby around the same time that Paul & I are. I’m so excited to have her live so close to us and I’m even more excited that our babies will get to grow up together. They are recently engaged and I’m so happy for them!
-Ashley Fly (!!! what an awesome last name !!!)
18 minutes of our awesome baby doing awesome things
On November 28th, we announced to the world that we were with child. I know I’m kind of late blogging this, but I’ve been sort of busy. Kind of. Not really. I’m about 19 weeks now! So, halfway through the magic that is pregnancy.
This is a photo of the third ultrasound we had done. It was a viability ultrasound, because the first one didn’t go so well. I was having severe pains and I went in at 5 weeks because I was paranoid. My OB said that the gestational sac looked rough and that we would more than likely experience a miscarriage. I was so distraught that I cried the entire week until we went back for the second one. When we had that one, they found a little yolk sac and a fetal pole. There was a heartbeat!
We started writing down names for both girls and boys, and narrowed it down to two:
Oliver Lighthall Fly & Eden Ysabel Fly
A few more months passed and we took a trip to Germany. (Paul was there on business) and when we returned, on February 18th, we drove to Clarksville to have a 3D/4D ultrasound done to find out the gender. I was 16 weeks and 5 days. The baby measured 17 weeks, so it was almost spot on! We found out that we were having a girl!
I know she looks a little scary right now, but I think she’s beautiful. Just yesterday I saw her kick through my tummy for the first time ever! And today I saw it once. I’m at the point now to where I will just stare at my stomach, waiting for it to happen, and as soon as I look away – *kick*
I’ve been feeling her kick for about 3 weeks now, and each day it gets a little stronger. She gets the hiccups quite frequently. Paul likes to put his head next to her when we’re in bed and talk to her. Every time he does, I start to tear up because it’s just so sweet.
I’ve gained 16 pounds so far. I’m doing very well as far as the weight gain goes, considering that I haven’t been eating as healthy as I wanted to. Some people shun me on what I eat, but most people just tell me to be happy and eat, and if I’m full, then the baby is full, and we are both happy.
I’ll post more about that next time.
A few weeks ago, Paul and I went to the Nashville Zoo. I’d read that there was a new baby giraffe there, and I really wanted to go see it. I finally made it to Nashville. I’ve lived in Clarksville, which is 45 minutes north of here for about 17 years now. If you live there, my only advice to you is to GTFO. I still have family there, though.. so I can’t completely wipe it out of the picture.
All of these photos were taken on instant film purchased from The Impossible Project, and shot with a Spectra System Polaroid camera. The color film is expired Spectra Image Paul Giambarba edition, which you can purchase by clicking HERE. The rest were shot on PZ 600 Silver Shade UV+ which you can also purchase by clicking HERE.
This is Paul, and he’s the greatest thing that’s ever happened to me.
That’s about it for now. I’ve got quite a few more to scan.. so more to come later. Toodles!